Hello. My step dad has Mesothelioma, which is asbestos cancer. He was diagnosed 3.5 years ago and immunotherapy has helped him to live longer than expected, as 50% of people die within a year. But he is now coming to the end of his life with days/weeks left to live. I've been coping reasonably ok, crying a lot and not sleeping well but generally able to get on with things. Yesterday I was caring for him and it all just hit me like a ton of bricks. I can't stop crying and I feel acutely anxious. I'm going to the toilet nonstop and feel sick to my stomach. I can't concentrate on anything at all and feel so removed/disassociated. I've just been reading around grief and come across anticipatory grief, and how it can just hit you out the blue. I don't think I can speak to my stepdad now without being a complete wreck. Has anyone experienced this, or is currently going through this? Thanks ️