My daughter has breast cancer

Hi , I'm new on here . Just a few days ago my 29 year old daughter was told she has a very rare form of breast cancer. It's so large that they have to do a double mastectomy . There's also a large mass under her armpit which, thankfully, is mastitis . From her first GP appointment to the diagnosis has been just 3weeks. We're all in shock. We're a very close family and I've always been the strong one who sorts everyone's problems but , as a mother, I feel extremely guilty it's her going through it and not me . 

I've done myself no favours by being the tough one over the years because , now the entire family is looking to me to make everything ok and support them. Of course as a mam ,  we automatically do that anyway, we'd walk over hot coals for our children , for all the family but , I'm finding it hard to be strong all thy time for them , putting a smile on my face and being positive when I'm literally hanging on by a thread myself. Has anyone else had this or a similar experience ? 

  • I'm so sorry your Daughter and you and family are going through this.I know exactly how you feel.When my dad was diagnosed I felt like I was wearing a mask.It's the only way I can describe it.I was so strong keeping everyone reassured making sure I was there for them all,put on a brave face and when I closed my door I would just crumble.I was in shock/autopilot.I also started to grieve my dad,I would walk in to rooms and start thinking is this is what it will be like.My dad has stage 4 but he has responded to treatment chemos have shrunk all 11 tumours.He is now a candidate for surgery.I tried continuing on with this behavior for weeks but it got to the stage I couldn't hide it and my family worried about me.I am like the cement in my family.I felt like I was carrying all there pain worry and upset , whilst also going to every appointment with my dad.I felt like I was existing but I wasn't here mentally.I eventually contacted my Doctor and I just sobbed,I also let my family know that I wasn't ok and I was really struggling.It's ok to feel what you are feeling.You are in complete shock.Cancer is such a devastating diease.Your Daughter is young and healthy she will fight and so will her body.Remember to look after you too.It's the unknown that's the scariest part but just stay positive and hold on to hope.Your beautiful daughter will come through the other side and you will be holding one another up through it all ️ ️xx