I just wanted to share how helpless I feel today.
I am currently waiting at home (I'm supposed to be working from home) for my husband to have his immunotherapy session. Now there are complications with his bloods, which mean the treatment may not be able to go ahead after all.
Worried what the loss of this treatment option will do to his positivity, and his chances.
Worried whether the physical problems will be fixable.
Absolutely unable to concentrate on my work.
And worried that this could be the way things will be for the coming weeks and months, and not sure how I'll come through this.
Then guilty because he's the one with the illness, not me.
Nothing I can do about any of it.
