Helpless - husband may not be able to have immunotherapy

I just wanted to share how helpless I feel today.

I am currently waiting at home (I'm supposed to be working from home) for my husband to have his immunotherapy session. Now there are complications with his bloods, which mean the treatment may not be able to go ahead after all.

Worried what the loss of this treatment option will do to his positivity, and his chances.

Worried whether the physical problems will be fixable.

Absolutely unable to concentrate on my work.

And worried that this could be the way things will be for the coming weeks and months, and not sure how I'll come through this.

Then guilty because he's the one with the illness, not me.

Nothing I can do about any of it.

  • Hello love, it's all so hard isn't it, the not knowing or the what if.  I've been dealing with this for four years, chemotherapy, radiotherapy and now immunotherapy for my husband.  So the deal in one missed treatment should not be too bad, we were told it carries on working after the treatment so missing one is not too bad.  My husband has had bad bloods no treatment but that's because he wouldn't drink the required amount of water because he didn't like water!  He went into a mood and I just told him it was his fault so no one else to blame, not happy with that but started drinking his water!  We try to Mummy them and they hate it because all control has been lost to the cancer so he is old enough to get through this in his own way.  Just act normal and leave him to work through the disappointment.  I see you say Mum of two how old are they?  I've been writing on this forum for four years so feel free to join in if you're having a tough day.  All my best wishes to you, here if you need me.  Carol x