Hello purplefleur Sorry to hear your partners illness.I was brought up C of E myself. and like you I hated the thought of god or powers that be that direct paths of our lives. this was in 1987. the reason I know the year, that is when my wife had gone full term with twins. the maternity ward who did the ultra sounds didn't see the need to induce her. But one morning. there was no kicking on my back. everything was still. the wife seemed worried and we went to the hospital. both babies hearts had stopped. they did the autopsy all the organs were healthy. they just said the umbilical chords had wrapped around both babies necks, and that's the moment I stopped believing in god. My wife did not deserve that. I was angry, not with my wife but with religion. My wife was a wonderful woman never swore, and I asure you I mean she never swore. Unlike myself, I don't turn the air blue with my language, I turn it pitch black. So my hatred for religion is still as strong now than when it was back in 1987. even more so now since my wife was given the most horrible disease of all. Bowel cancer. and lasted 6 weeks from her diagnosis. My darling wife and I had been married 1 month shy of 34 years. She was catholic. and just for her peace of mind, I hope there's something there for her, and she is watching over me two kids and four grandchildren. this is just my personal opinion and I'd never preach to others that there is nothing more after life. I hope your prayers don't fall on death ears and his pain gets less. in my wife case her pain stopped when she stopped breathing, it was like a weight of our shoulders knowing she was no longer in any more pain.

Hello purplefleur Sorry to hear your partners illness.I was brought up C of E myself. and like you I hated the thought of god or powers that be that direct paths of our lives. this was in 1987. the reason I know the year, that is when my wife had gone full term with twins. the maternity ward who did the ultra sounds didn't see the need to induce her. But one morning. there was no kicking on my back. everything was still. the wife seemed worried and we went to the hospital. both babies hearts had stopped. they did the autopsy all the organs were healthy. they just said the umbilical chords had wrapped around both babies necks, and that's the moment I stopped believing in god. My wife did not deserve that. I was angry, not with my wife but with religion. My wife was a wonderful woman never swore, and I asure you I mean she never swore. Unlike myself, I don't turn the air blue with my language, I turn it pitch black. So my hatred for religion is still as strong now than when it was back in 1987. even more so now since my wife was given the most horrible disease of all. Bowel cancer. and lasted 6 weeks from her diagnosis. My darling wife and I had been married 1 month shy of 34 years. She was catholic. and just for her peace of mind, I hope there's something there for her, and she is watching over me two kids and four grandchildren. this is just my personal opinion and I'd never preach to others that there is nothing more after life. I hope your prayers don't fall on death ears and his pain gets less. in my wife case her pain stopped when she stopped breathing, it was like a weight of our shoulders knowing she was no longer in any more pain.