Hello Rmbex2004, 

Welcome to Cancer Chat. I am so sorry to hear about your cousin. She is so young it is truly heartbreaking that she has been told she only has a few months to live. I can imagine this is all too painful for you and that you feel powerless and emotional at the moment. It might be worth talking to your GP about how you are feeling at the moment, about the fact that it doesn't feel real and that you feel really angry, that you feel as if you were already grieving. Your doctor will be able to point you in the right direction, perhaps offer some counselling which would be targeted to these feelings of anticipatory grief. It does sound like you might need just a little bit of help from your GP to help you deal with these intense feelings and emotions. 

I hope that you will also hear from some of our members who have also experienced similar feelings and that they will be along shortly to give you some suggestions as to what helped them and how they managed to feel better despite the difficult circumstances. 

We're thinking of you, your cousin as well as her family during this challenging time. We're all here for you anytime you need to talk to others who understand what you are going through. 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator