I have never posted in a chat group before but a few weeks ago my world started to.spin and I cant pull myself together. A long story but my mums GP fobbed off a persistent cough for over a year until I called them.and insisted on some imaging. They did an xray and called her to say she had a large cyst between her lung and heart but nothing sinister. For completeness they would organise a ct to look at how best to treat it. Two weeks later out of the blue she is told it's an 8cm lung tumor which has gone to lymph nodes and is incurable but treatable. She had a biopsy today but we have to wait until 16th april to discuss any further. Mum thinks she has about 5 years but I am obsessively googling and it seems more like months. She is going to be heartbroken and terrified when they tell her. We know its T4 N3 M0 but nothing else.. I havent slept more than 2 hours a night in weeks. I lock myself in the bathroom to cry. I cant bare the not knowing but dread the day they tell us.. I dont know how to cope. I was unable to have children so when everyone else was making friends with kids mums and going on play dates I would be with my.mum. she is my world . Can anyone give me help on how to get through this? I am.desperate.. thank.you.
