The Hubster started Radiotherapy for throat cancer on Monday (6 weeks, 5 days a week), apparently side effects shouldn't start for a couple of weeks. They seem to have started to kick in already, yesterday he was suddenly super tired with tooth and jaw pain. Possibly because he hasn't recovered fully from the couple of ops he's had (biopsy on the 24th Dec 2020, removal of cancerous right tonsil on the 27th Jan 2021 with 47 lymph nodes removed, (thankfully only one had cancerous cells). We've been handling this all with inappropriate houmor but yesterday we couldn't raise a smile. On Monday a really lovely chap we know passed away from what started out as throat cancer and moved to his lungs, yesterday a really lovely lady we know passed away from breast cancer. We do our best to be positive but yesterday was so hard, better today though. I really wanted to share how I was feeling but everyone's struggling at the moment and with the loss of my dad on the 17th Dec, I don't want people being overly concerned about me. Hubster and I shared our thoughts and feelings and we are choosing to stay positive, I just felt the need to write it down.

Himself is being surprisingly upbeat, I say surprisingly because he does suffer from depression at times. Luckily I'm an optimist and my natural dispersion is happy, however I have to say with the Pandemic, loss of friends, possible loss of job, loss of parent and Steve's illness I wonder how much more it will take to tip me over the edge and if the universe is testing that! Well have at it Universe you've got a fight on your hands. 

Going to keep a record of what goes on with us on here, I promise it will be a jollier read going forward and I appologise for spelling errors as I'm borderline dyslexic and poorly educated ;)

Thanks for reading x