My mum has had a neuroendocrine tumor that started in her pancreas but has spread everywhere for nearly 7 years. We are now in the end stage of her journey but she is continuing to be in complete denial About what is happening to her. She is in pain, losing weight and has lost mobility and control of her bladder/bowls. She is now going through her second spinal cord compression and is insisting on having radiation so she can walk again. She spends every conversation with me repeating that she wants to live snd that she isn't dying and that god is helping her. Her family are all praying for a miracle and no one is accepting the situation apart from me. I'm an only child and I don't have anyone to help with the burden. She doesn't seem to care at all about the impact of her behaviour on me and my family. I can't cope with the suffering any more, she is in relentless pain and I just wonder what on Earth is coming next. She's force feeding herself because she believes that if she eats she will beat the cancer. She is trying to walk, even though she has been told not to move and then falls over. It's an absolute nightmare to watch and she also hasn't told anyone in her life how ill she is so they are all calling me for information. It's just a really hard situation. She wants me to say that I know she is going to survive and beat this and I just can't say it because she is getting worse every day so she now thinks I'm evil and want her to die. I don't really know how to cope with this. I've looked after her for 7 years and I just can't cope with it all anymore! Help! Any ideas on how to help myself accept what is happening and roll with it even though the suffering is unbearable. Thank you.