Guilt trip

Hi

My husband has late stage Colon Cancer with metastic cancer in liver and lungs. He was diagnosed in late 2019. The last year has been simply dreadful with no hope of a cure but plenty of Chemo. Covid has been an extra layer of suffering which has made my husband's last year feel pointless and empty. I find myself praying for it all to be over and then feel extraordinary guilt because of this. How do other spouses in my position cope with these extremes of emotion?  

  • Hello Zoe007

    I'm sorry to hear about your husband's diagnosis. It's been a very tough year for many people and even more so for those undergoing treatment to manage incurable cancers. 

    We've two lovely ladies here on the forum [@Dor06]‍ and [@Hilts]‍ who have been caring for their husbands whilst going through treatment and I'm sure that they would understand some of your experiences. As I've tagged them into my reply hopefully they'll post to share their stories with you. 

    It can sometimes help to talk to someone and so if you'd like to chat with one of our nurses you're most welcome to give them a call. I'm sure they'll be happy to offer any advice and support that they can. They're available Monday to Friday from 9 am to 5 pm on 0808 800 4040. 

    We know that it can be a very lonely place to be when caring for a loved one but please know the community is here to support you so keep in touch Zoe and let us know how you're doing. 

    Best wishes, 
    Jenn
    Cancer Chat moderator 

  • Hi zoe007, it's Dor06 and you don't need to feel guilty about anything we are human and have feelings and have highs and lows and the unknown is the worst.  I write most day under my Dor06 tag and you are welcome to join me or message privately and we can discuss your concerns and how to cope.  Hope to speak soon, love Carol x