Hello honey-lily, 

Poor you what an awful year you have had losing your father in law last July, then your husband and you both catching covid and your mum then sadly passing away due to covid.  I am so sorry you've had to endure all these sad losses when this is already a very difficult time for you since your husband's diagnosis. This is all truly heartbreaking and I can understand why you are feeling like this has been just too hard to deal with you. You do seem really strong but do take time just to breathe if you can and to have a moment to recharge your batteries after everything you've been through. If it all gets a bit much, do talk to your GP about how you are feeling and about everything you've been through recently and they may have some good advice or tips on how to keep on going through these tough times especially as you are also having to care for your husband. We have some useful information on our website for family, friends and caregivers to help you not only support your husband but it also includes tips on how to take care of yourself. I can imagine it is so hard for you to find the time to do this though especially with two young children to look after as well. You are doing incredibly well as this is an awful lot to have to deal with.  

Keep strong, honey-lily we're all here for you if you need a chat and many on our forum will have been in a similar situation and will understand how tough things are for you at the moment. I will now let them come and say hello and share their own story with you. 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator