Hi , I have come on here because I'm hoping someone is going to tell me everything is going to be alright but I know it's not . my mum (a nurse) was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer at age 60 almost 2 years ago . She has been doing well until April 2020 when she got the dreaded covid 19 and spent 9 weeks in hospital . Doctors couldn't believe she survived given the state of her lungs already but she amazed them and left hospital. She was put on oxygen 24/7 , which helped at the beginning but since then it's been non stop in and out hospital / hospice for pain or infections. She only came out the hospice on Friday (2days ago) and today away back to hospital now with pneumonia, she is so unwell and confused , I lost my dad suddenly when I was 11 and although I am almost 40 now I still need my mum . She's not only my mum but my best friend , it's so hard to watch someone you love suffer like this . It's made worse by not being able to see her because of covid 19  and all hospitals will not allow visitors . Iv been caring for my mum on my own for this past year because family and friends have been shielding, not even an offer to do my shopping or ironing or anything to lighten my load which has really stuck in the throat as I am trying to do all this and hold Down a full time job . Iv not slept in days and I feel I'm just ranting now but I needed to get that off my chest .   I feel very sad , worried and alone right now xx