someone very close to me has cancer.
it is not curable but treatment is available.
they are still processing/ in denial.
the death will effect my life in many many ways.
they will not ask any questions as they like the ' just tell me what i need to know about today' kind of approach.
i have no idea if this person has weeks months or years. nothing is in place. cant even say the word treatment without causing an issue.
am i selfish for wanting more information.. to make plans.
how long do i leave it before it's to late and they are dead.
i am silently struggling.
i have tried talking and i am shut down every single time.
no one else seems to think how i am thinking and i don't understand how i can be the only one that see how selfish this person is being.
i understand how heartless that makes me sound but the not knowing is making the entire situation 10 times harder and am scared if i give them time to process before i force them to have the hard chats it will be to late and they will already be dead in which case the situation will be 100 times worse.
