Hello. 

Sorry for your husbands diagnosis. I think you are still in shock. 

Remember that even though you feel you need to support your husband, you still need support. This could be from other family members or a close friend. Even a simple thing as a friend making you a cup of tea, listening to you, and just holding you as you scream or cry is beneficial for you to get the negative out so you are in fighting mode to support your husband. You and your husband are not alone in this. The medical team, friends and family are absolutely invaluable right now so please don't think you 2 are facing this alone. 

The full body scan is just to get a clearer picture of what's going on inside. They will then get answers, and can then arrange the best treatment for your husband.

Keeping you in my thoughts at this difficult time. 

Thank you so much for replying.

You are right, I am in shock and a bit of denial that this can't be happening to us. I have a large family but cant bring myself to talk to them yet as I know I'll just sob.  Spoke to my best friend yesterday so hopefully I'll get better at talking to others about it.

Thanks again

Being told about my dads stage 4 cancer i lost it and ugly cried.  I thought i was cried put when we rang my aunt, my dads twin sister, and hearing her breaking set me off again. Telling my brother done the same as they were both over the phone. Its been 8 days since we found out and I still cry at the thought, or if someone asks "how's your mum and dad" so please don't rush getting the feelings of wanting to sob to end because they may not until you get the results of the scan and an action plan in place. You have to get through the shock, denial and anger and then acceptance before you can function enough to feel strong and talk without feeling that pain. Theres no time limit for that.  Baby steps. You could also just tell one or 2 people in your family and ask them to let the others know on your behalf. Nobody will be upset that they weren't personally told by you.  They'll understand that your husband is your priority.

Above all, keep doing things you always do, hold hands more often, make memories, take lots of pictures etc. And do take time for you.