So here we are husband has to date had 13 radiotherapy sessions and one chemotherapy session. I had done lots of research as I thought before he started to help me try to prepare and support what he had coming. Sadly we knew he was going to be going to hell and back as the treatment is brutal but absolutely nothing prepared either of us for this. We thought weeks 4 onwards would be his worst but I cannot honestly imagine worse. He hasn't eaten anything for 3 days,  he cannot even drink the shakes from the hospital. Absolutely everything burns his mouth and he cannot swallow it. Tried absolutely every single recommendation i have seen on posts from buying medication,  to different types of food and drink. He can just about drink water and get pain killers in him. Even liquid painkillers burn him ! We took him to minor injuries yesterday to look at his mouth and they have given drops for thrush which has helped tongue but not his throat. He said he wants to die and he is meant to be starting radiotherapy again tomorrow and another chemotherapy in a few days which knocked him sideways last time. I honestly don't know how he will cope , if he will and how I can try to support him going forwards. Covid has made this so much harder and during Christmas as there is no one to talk to  as staff are understandably on a deserved Christmas holiday but I feel so overwhelmed