I'm sorry, as I expect this has been posted many times before. I wasn't sure what to search for.

My dad has terminal cancer and dementia. Because of Covid, to keep both my parents safe, I'm only able to see him if I isolate for a fortnight first. I live hundreds of miles away with my partner and I've only been able to isolate twice so far, so I'm mostly talking to him in brief chats from the garden whenever I can visit.

I'm really struggling. I can't spend the time with him that I hoped and I'm so angry at being robbed of our last days together. More than that, I'm so damn sad for him. I'm mostly just trying not to think so much, but it's really hard to make the most of my remaining time with him - it was hard anyway, given the dementia - and I know that I'm storing up an awful lot of anger and grief down the line. I'm trying so hard to visit often and support them from outside but I feel like I'm doing everything wrong and it's unbearable watching them suffer. I know lots of you will feel/will have felt like your feelings are overwhelming and I wondered if you could give me some hope (or advice) that one day I'll be able to grapple with these feelings? At the moment, life feels pretty hopeless a lot of the time. Thank you so much.