Hi there ...

So so sorry your going through this heartbraking time at the moment... life and this year seems to be crule for many of us ... you sound amazing and they must be very proud of you ...

I lost my sister to dementure in March... and my granddaughter to acute myeloid leukaemia last month ..  and my amazing niece is on her cancer journey now ... l found it much easier going through my breast cancer... seeing others I love and loosing them esp in a year with this covid ... making things even harder..   

So your not alone ... many of us on here, know the feelings of loss ... and of caring for those on their journey ... you can put any feelings down here .. and we know how they feel ... so welcome to our little safe place to come ... hope others pop on to say hi .. but sending you a vertual hug.... here most days if you wanna chat ... Chrissie x

Hi ...

Well remember , your doing amazing ... most couldn't do what your doin ... and one day you'll look back and be so proud of yourself ... it's so easy to drown in the sercomstances... like quick sand ...

And maybe it's only me .. but I know we can all look at a penny and see either heads or tails ... l like to look at the better side .. more positive side if I can ... like instead of grieving for their loss .. instead look at times gone and realise how much we did have ... 

I lost mum and dad in my 30s ... like yours were a huge part of my life every day ... yea they gave me a huge hole to fill ... but kept remembering the good times ... my dad was like the B F G  ... loved us kids .. told us made up stories .. did little magic tricks ... never raised a hand or even raised his voice ... he was magic .. mum was my best buddy ... together always .. she adored my boys , and them her .. 30 years after she's gone they still put photo as of her on their face book...

So I just realise how lucky I was to have those memories ... and it taught me to love people now .. make the most of now ... and later we just keep them wrapped up safely in our hearts and bring them along with us ... 

Where you are right now is one of the hardest things you will do in life ... but hold on to those moments you can hold their hands .. and this is a time for saying all what's in your heart .. and leave nothing unsaid ..  ask them about their life ... how they met .. their childhood ... everyone has a story ... listen to music .. it's the little things you still can do that will make this journey for them easier ... just knowing your there .. and it's o.k to cry .. or cuss ... and it's o.k to laugh sometimes to ... I always try to find one thing that makes me smile every day ... though a few have been too hard .. but if we look hard enough there's usually at least one thing ... keep on holding on ... that's all we can do ... hug back again ... we can't have too many of them ... Chrissie xx 

Yes so true. My farther is also like the BFG lol such a kind man always took it upon himself to provide and look after his family . So I suppose I get it from him .  I very much appreciate your reply's and reading your messsges sort of puts things in to perspective. I least I have the pleasure of knowing my parents for the time I have and time to come if that makes sense. When the dreaded day comes at least I know what there wishes are . Mum is starting to loose her hair I am thinking of shaving mine off support her and raise some money for Macmillan. 
 

pete x

Hi Chirss

dont know if you can remember I posted about my mum on here with high grade non Hoskins lymphoma. You answered me and it felt like someone cared and I thank you but since I have always wondered how you were doing ? I hope your well  

pete