Hello all,

I don't know why I've finally decided to post here, I guess Im Just having a down moment but I'm really struggling today... My mum has secondary bone cancer, it originated when I was 13 In her breast and after 5 or 6 years we thought we'd defeated it. I'm 29 now and three years ago we got the news it was back, in her bones and it's terminal.... 

What gets me through it is being rational, knowing that the biggest threat is disability and not death (and disability could happen to any of us not just cancer patients), so long as it stays out of her organs (so far so good) but with the whole covid situation, I'm so worried... I feel super protective over my mum, its preventing me and my children from doing things as I can't justify doing other activities if I can't see my mum (which I honestly think is the right call) but sometimes I stop and think at some point she's going to die, either because of the cancer or because of the Covid which will get her bad because of the cancer and it's just so much to take on. I've not hugged or touched her for 6 months my kids 5 and 1 have hugged her once in six months just before they went back to school and nursery. I so desperately want things to go back to normal, not for my life but for my mums... It's so hard right now as I just fell all this time staying apart is time I could spend making memories and being close with my mum and the same for my kids....

I'm sorry for being down about all this but I. Really struggling right now and just needed to vent a little.