Hello!

I am new to this forum and looking for any experience, strength, and hope from those who might have a similar situation or can offer some comforting words of wisdom or advice. My partner of 5 years has been supportive over the last 5 years that my mother (in the States) has been dealing with stage 4 non-small cell lung cancer. Until now. After lockdown my partner traveled to Greece to visit his family and attend to some work needs and I was planning to join him from our home in London. When my mother's chemo drug stopped working and she had complications a week after my partner's departure my level of risk to travel east (Greece) for holiday when I might need to travel west (to the States) to support my mom went way down. I clumsilly told my partner I may not make it to Greece to join him for a holiday was not met well on his part. He said, 'but your  mom has had cancer since I met you'.  I tried to explain my fears and need to stay put in London and not risk exposure to Covid as I may need to travel t o the States but, still, he has grown frustrated and decided not to return to London. I am devastated and feel torn between two people I love dearly (my mom and my partner). Any thoughts, reflections or suggetions are welcome. I suppose I have choices but feel really caught in fear and not sure which way to go. I want to be there for my mom and also keep this relationship alive. Thanks for listenting. Sara