Hi,

Around 5 months ago my Nan was diagnosed with terminal cancer. 
We've recently been advised it has spread and growing fast so she now only has a couple of weeks to live.

im struggling to cope with everyone's emotions around me, 

My mother is not coping with the news very well and is feeling guilty that she's not doing enough for my Nan no matter how much we tell her this isn't the case. 
 

it doesn't help that things are very strained between my grandfather and my mam & her siblings as my grandfather has become very aggressive and often shouts at my grandmother in frustration as since her tumour she now struggles with her speech and takes time to process what she wants to say and often stutters. 

My cousins are really emotional about the news so I'm usually the one they go to when they get upset, I often question my own feelings as I'm never as upset as them  but I don't think I have/will process it until my grandmother has gone and I know that sounds dreadful to say.