Hi
The past three years have been some of the worst in my life. In 2017 my dad was diagnosed with oesophageal cancer, he sadly passed away in March 2018. In the same month as my dad died my husband of 35years was diagnosed with motor neurone disease, I watched a very fit man fade away before my eyes. I spent the last few months of 2019 being his full time carer. He sadly passed away in February this year.
The day after his funeral my mum was told she had bowel and secondary liver cancer which had spread to far to be treated other than with palliative care. Then lockdown began. Before her diagnosis and lockdown we were planning to go on holiday and make a few happy memories together.
Over the last few months I have been watching an extremely active women fade away. She absolutely hates it as she has hardly ever been ill. During the last few weeks she has stopped getting up and spends all her time in bed. At the start of this week she told my brother and I that she no longer wants food and that she has had enough and can't go on. I am now caring for her full time but hoping to sort out a package of care soon.
Find it all very hard as it brings back memories of looking after my husband.
Writing this has helped me.
