I am in the same situation, my husband had bladder cancer 6 years ago and was in remission 5 1/2 years only to be diagnosed 2 weeks ago with Metastasis liver and bone but staying positive for him and our kids, It’s so hard 

Luckd my heart goes out to you. 

After recently losing my mam to lung cancer 3 weeks ago, all I can say is take it one day at a time. Dont bottle it all away, take a couple of minutes every day to scream, cry, hit, kick. What ever it may be.. Its ok to feel overwhelmed so much so that you feel if you start trying to talk about it, it becomes real. There is support out there and when your ready, you'll be able to talk about it and soon it will become all you'll ever talk about. Big hugs to you x 

Luckd, please add me if you feel the need.

I understand the difficulty of being unable to talk to loved ones about terminal cancer, my father is currently going through it.

I can't promise advice but I am to read your concerns. Venting helps.

Wishing you the best in this horrific time.