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Met love of my life & now he might be dying

Hollers
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Hi Everyone,

 

I've been reading your posts to try and get some advice and support.

I met my boyfriend two christmas's ago and 4 months into our relationship he was diagnosed with a rare and aggressive lymphoma. Thankfully he responded well to chemo and a SCT, but 7 months later it's come back with a vengence. 

His Dr says he's gonna have 2 sessions of chemo and if he responds will hopefully get on a clinical trial, but if he doesn't respond he has weeks to months to live.

I don't know how to cope. It feels so unfair. We've had so little time together and we've imagined growing old together and doing all these things that now we're not going to be able to do. 

How do we get through this next period of treatment? And if it's not successful, how do we get through the end? And then living without him??

To make matters worse, I'm having to isolate for 7 days before I can see him because of the COVID risk, which is making this news so much harder to absorb.

I feel like my heart is braking, but I want to be strong and positive for him and support him the best way I can.

How do I do that?

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    Hello, I know exactly how your feeling. I too have only just met my partner, 3 years ago, he was diagnosed with terminal bowel cancer 6 months ago, just coming to the end of his first bout of chemo but now being told that they will keep him on it as its helping and he is coping so well. He is so positive and keeps saying that he will beat it, although we have been told it's not possible. 

    I too am finding it so unfair, and don't know how to deal with it, I cant imagine my life without him. And struggle with feeling selfish about how it affects me. 

    I wish I could give you some advise but i don't know the answers. 

    Just maybe knowing someone else feels the same may help. X

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    Thanks Jane. I think it does help knowing someone else is going through something similar and knows how we feel.

    I agree, I feel selfish for worrying how I might live without him, when he's facing the end of his life so early.

    All we can do is try and stay strong.

    Big hugs

    x

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    It's easier said than done. 

    I try very hard to keep a smile on my face, when I'm struggling, I just look at him and think if he can get up every day with a smile , what gives me the right to grumble, and that every day with him is a bonus and I cant waste it feeling sorry for myself. At the end of the day we are lucky to have met the love of our lifes. 

    Stay strong x

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