Hi there ...

So sorry your going through this heartbraking time at the moment.... it's one of the hardest things we go through ...

If your dad has the cancer in his brain, it will change his personality .. if he was lovely before, it is not him , it's the cancer ... I usually advise anyone not to take anger .. but your dad, has this crule nasty desese in so many places ..

I'd agree with Carol, deffinatly get help .. and have a safe place you can go to, to calm down .. keep saying to your self .. it's not your dad being angry .. and it will test you, if he comes home ... if things get so hard, please consider a hospice ... they are trained in this, and you can still have visits with him .. but talk to McMillan .. get as much help and advice as you can ... and I hope you have family that can help .. though these days the carona virus is making everything even harder ...

But don't feel guilty if you can get a hospice ... those that work there are so amazing ... let's hope they can get your dad out of pain and that may help a little .. 

Sending you a vertual hug.... Chrissie x