Mum found a lump on her breast on 16 / 6 / 2016  she  was 70 , people might think she's old it's her time , but please not the dreaded way  slow growing cancer , tired in pain , vomiting,  year 2018 had masectomy 

Waited 2 years before tumour was removed then given radiotherapy was hopeful mum would survive the 10 years 

3months later tumours reappeared on the same breast which was removed what the he'll did she have the radiotherapy for ?  Then told she only has a few months to live , has the cancer has spread to bones and lungs  she doesn't want to be in a hospice she wants to die at home , the only family  that can surport her is myself I'm nearly 50 have arthritis and don't like the idea mum wants me thier to do everything while she sleeps all day due to the morphine,  I seem selfish  I know cancer messes up everything I need strength  and patience , I want to be in my own home.  Or am I wrong should i live with my mum and be her carer with 4 dogs to look after has well it just seems overwhelming has I suffer with depression  and just want to sleep myself but its not about me its my mum. I think I'm in denial off my mum dying I should do the right thing and live there and surport her it must be so scary I'm sorry just had to have a moan. . May her final days be in comfort would love comments how I can make her finnal days speacial but she can't go out due to covid 9