So my dad has about now a 30% chance of survival. I've started praying it calms me and gives me hope. It takes away the nervous gut feeling I always seem to half. I listened to some songs with my dad today and it just makes me sad because what happens if he dies all those song will just bring up memories of him that will make me miss and will probably get me really sad. I see the fear in my moms eyes as she looks at me and dad having a good times , a fear like it's not gonna last. I'm scared I don't want lose him. I love him and I'm afraid I'll never be same.
