Hi, currently my mum is waiting for a cancer diagnosis. She is extremely unwell, unable to hold down water or food. This has been going on for 5 weeks. She's lost about a stone and a half, and only weighed 8 stone to begin with. 
 

I understand this coronavirus pandemic is serious & is no way a criticism of the individuals working, they are always so kind, but I just feel completely let down by the NHS. Watching my mum throw up multiple times a day and just waste away is just not acceptable. All we get is 'sip water & eat little & often' & its just not working. 

We just have no solid timeframes so it seems there is no light at the end of this painful tunnel. 
 

I am struggling emotionally at the moment and just feel so desperately sad. My mum is feeling really negative which makes me get annoyed at her and tell her to be more positive, I then feel instantly guilty about getting angry. 
 

I'm not sure of any of this even made sense, I'm just sitting here crying and need to get my feelings out. I'm all alone when caring for my mum & she's all I have. I'll be completely lost without her. 

Unfortunately I'm sure I'm not alone in this feeling of sadness & feeling completely abandoned by the NHS.