Im 24 years old, my mum is 69, but acted so young and trendy right up until now, she is my rock and im so scared. She has had cancer under control for about 6 years now, in her breast, unfortunately spread and the chemo she had didnt didnt work, anyway she was great we did so much together as we knew one day it would get worse.. in September there was a tumour in her bowl... She had a 14hr operation to remove some of the tumour, and have a stoma fitted.. then we knew that the cancer was obviously spreading since her op, she never got out of bed, at Christmas she was so miserable and couldnt help at all, it was heartbreaking, in January she was told she is now in the last stages and will be in palliative care in the family home, we all struggled to come to terms with it, but stayed strong and kept her laughing and smiling as much as we could.. her twin sister has been helping my dad look after her, as well as the nurses and myself. 

Today she was in so much pain in the morning, the nurses put her on a drip for the pain, she fell asleep straight away, the nurse said she might wake up.. we are all so upset, i dont dont what to do without my mum, she helped me with so much, she didnt even get a chance to see my new home.. and the thought of not seeing me ever have children etc is just heartbreaking, she was so upset about that when she was told the bad news.

I dont know what to do, i look in her room and see all the boxes of nice things she had for Christmas that she wont ever use, her dressing gown.. her shoes everything in her wardrobe, its so so so sad. She has so many clothes i dont want to ever throw them out, and her ipad and iPhone and her Facebook page.. its so scary i wish we had more time with her, i feel like she had so much more to give.