Hi,

completely new here but looking for a little guidance and just reassurance I guess, need to feel like I'm doing something...

so yesterday my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer. It's a small lump, they're going to remove it and her lymph nodes and then she's into 3-6 months of chemo/radiotherapy and some kind of injection in her thigh. They said it's oestrogen based and will grow if left. I expected them to remove the lump, or even do a mastectomy but I don't think I was ready for the chemo and radiotherapy. My neighbour recently had breast cancer and she didn't have to have chemo etc, I'd got it in my head that she wouldn't have to have that done. 
 

she's a strong woman and I always thought I was equally strong but I've truly fallen apart and I feel awful. I KNOW that in reality people get way worse news every single day and really it's not as serious as it could be... but it's filled me with a fear and dread that I can't describe. 
 

my brain is conjuring up every single worst case scenario and I've caught myself thinking the worst so many times. 
 

I don't really know what I'm hoping to achieve by posting here but I think I just needed to talk about it and I didn't want to burden her with it. I know I need to be strong for her but i just can't seem to do it at the moment. 
 

thanks everyone x