Hi. 

Ive just signed up and going through some posts, this made me think of me at the moment. My mum has just been told she has secondary cancer. She had a total hysterectomy a year ago, followed by chemotherapy and radiotherapy, and was told all was looking good. She was feeling back to herself a month ago, then, just before Xmas, had to go into hospital, with breathing difficulties, and 2 litres of fluid was drained from around her lung.

We were told this was normal, and all should be fine, but 2 days before Xmas, we got the news, it was secondary cancer, and there was no chance of recovery. She has decided to go into a hospice, to hopefully be more comfortable, for however long she might have. She is not eating, and is so so down, after the year she has had, thinking all was going so well, but because it hasn't, she is refusing anymore chemotherapy, and wants it all to end as quickly as possible as she feels so bad. 

Now, the reason why i said your post got me, is that im a single guy, with no kids, and the only family i have, is my mum and dad. My dad is finding it hard, and im sure this will take lots out of him. So all ive been doing, apart from stressing about my mum, and feeling so bad for her, is im worrying about my own future. Ive always had my mum there for me, and knowing she wont be anymore, i feel ive nobody to turn to, and being 45 years old, ill be going through this again, when its my dads time, all by myself. I know i sound so selfish, but ive been in tears since the 23rd. I know what you are going through, even though its not entirely the same situation, and if you ever need to chat, just message.