After xray in April 2018 and November 2018 my dad supposedly had no sign of cancer but January 2019 dad was diagnosed with mild COPD and February diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer. 
 

I have an older sister and a younger brother. I felt it was easier for me to leave work and help mum care for dad so it's not all on her. But I think I'm just starting to struggle... I'm meant to be getting married in March 2020, but the thought of my dad not being there to walk me down the aisle just makes me cry.. or to see my house or kids... just horrible... 

My dad was amongst the unfortunate that got the side effect of chemotherapy. The infection knocked him out and he spent an entire month in intensive care. Since chemo being a risky option, they offered dad to take part in a clinical trial which is only at the phase 1 stage.. 

with all of this, I keep having the same nightmares over and over again. Where I'm at hospital and doctors tell me my dad didn't survive...