Hi,
My wonderful husband was diagnosed with bowel cancer 8 weeks ago after having no symptoms at all. He started vomiting and his abdomen distended a week before which is how we got to this devastating diagnosis. He had the tumor removed and is due to start chemo next week. He has a CT scan of his liver and lungs and the told us he had no spread but he had cysts on his liver so they did a MRI scan just to double check. 2 days ago the doctor rang and told us the MRI had shown 2 very small cancer (7mm and 6mm) on his liver. We are beyond devastated as we had just started to feel like we were getting back to normal (well a new normal) after believing it had all gone. He's still having chemo as planned but we have to wait until next week to see the oncologist to see what all this means. My husband is coping so well but I'm (shamefully) falling apart. He's 37 years old and we have 2 small children. I'm terrified that he won't be able to walk our daughter down the ailse, that we won't grow old together and I'm so focused on losing him that i can't think about the here and now. I can't face eating as I constantly feel sick, my heart is racing all the time and all I do is cry and I hate that I'm not being strong. The not knowing is literally tearing me apart. I just can't live without him and I don't know what to do.
