Going to be a stemcell donor to my daughter in 3 weeks time had an appt with the transplant consultant to talk about what’s going to happen and  he told us my stem cells can cure my daughter fm cancer or her body can reject my stem cells and then she dies but I’m not allowed to feel scared stressed etc  because as my daughter says it’s her who has the cancer , but I do feel I feel sad really sad and Ian frightend that my mind can’t sustain this journey, am I allowed to feel what I’m feeling , in 3 weeks time life will change for the better  plz god or the worst don’t get me wrong  it’s a hopeful time but also  very scary ,but I have to pretend I’m ok and cry in secret because I have so many people relying on me to be strong especially my 5 year old granddaughter  my daughters child , what do I do if my daughter dies