Hi, oh my god that's a lot for you to absorb. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Will they ever find a cure!

As daunting as this is for you, you need to be strong for your Dad. Myself and my family tried to be for my Dad and we were able to most of the time. The odd time we'd break down in front of him when he tried to assure us that he wasn't afraid. He didn't want to get upset. Only talking to my sister today I learned that my dad was keeping it together for us. He told her I have to for you all cos what will happen otherwise.Breaks my heart. We were his only thoughts through his last few weeks. This despite me asking him, almost pleading with him to show us how he felt. I felt he was too calm and that he was carrying this burden on his own which I now know he was. I wish we had been a bit more stronger for him so that he didn't feel that he needed to shield us from everything. Of course the floodgates would open when I got home but it's so hard to keep all the feelings contained all the time. To see your one and only Dad infront you, knowing he has to leave you all behind. It's the stuff of nightmares and one you never recover from. 

Just pack as much in as you can. As I say to everyone leave nothing unsaid. Now is not the time to be coy about feelings. Make sure he knows that you are grateful for everything he has ever done for you. Share all your memories with him. 

I wish you all the strength and courage you need to get through this awful time. In the meantime enjoy your time with your Dad. Try not let the inevitable overshadow things. He is still with you. You will have time after to grieve. Don't do it while he is still here. My brother did this. He just had such a hard time coming to terms with it all and dad knew this. He would call for my brother and I would make the excuses as to why he was up in his room and not down with us all. People deal with things differently. There were times when I just didn't want to go visit my Dad. I just wanted to bury my head in the sand but to do so would have caused hurt to my dad. I never wanted him to feel he was alone in all of this. It's very tough and there is no script for it all.

Hi many thanks for your meaningful words it's good to hear it from a differ side x

i just want my dad to be able to tell me anything but told him I can't promise but will try my best to be strong 

he's a mans man so having him as my sicknote (

a nickname for bit of laughter between us both)  this and rocky because he needs to keep fighting x

let's just say he's not an easy patient  and doesn't want me to see him in down or pain days this is hard when all I want to do is be there for him x