On Monday 1st July I found my brother age 49 had , had his bladder, prostate and part of his bowel removed because of cancer

I cant believe this has happened to him , he is so kind, layed back ,no trouble to anyone,has a lovely wife and two great boys, and  he didn’t tell us ( his brother , sisters and dad until now that he had cancer as he didn’t want to worry us)

yesterday the 4 th July we told that he has just arranged his funeral, sorted out his wifes widow pension and so on 

He has just a few weeks to live now, as he now has it in his pelvis, abdomen and lungs, everything has happened so quick

i dont know where he finds the strength, as I’m sitting here writing this with tears rolling down my cheeks, and I can’t stop crying 

I don’t know wether I will see him before he passes as he does not want to see anyone as yet beacause he feels so poorley

in some ways I think it would be better to remember him the way he was

i feel hopeless I can’t do anything to stop this cruel disease , and hurt so much 

i lost my mum to this 20yrs ago she was only 52

life is so cruel , I wish I could swap places with him 

love you my brave brother...always