I’m 27 years old. My mum recently turned 60. On the 29th April she had a stroke while walking home and developed global aphasia. She has been in hospital ever since. Initially she was on the acute stroke ward, then moved to rehab a week later where she lost her appetite and developed jaundice, then the respiratory ward to drain off 4.5 litres of fluid from her lungs. She had an MRI and they found a tumour blocking her bile duct. On 13th May my dad, mum and I were told by three doctors that she had terminal cancer of her liver or bile duct and was likely to be on palliative care and they’d get her home ASAP and put us in touch with the hospice team. The same day, a gastro-intestinal doctor told me they weren’t sure she even has cancer and we were told prematurely. As you can imagine, a very horrific and traumatic rollercoaster of a day. She was moved back to the acute stroke ward. She hasn’t eaten anything for over two weeks and has been sick every day. She has had two failed ECRPs so no confirmation of cancer and almost went for a PTC which was decided against when the doctor realised we hadn’t been informed of the risks. Communication throughout has been excruciatingly bad which has sent our stress levels sky high. Was told today that there is a 40% chance she won’t live past 30 days if she has the PTC because the presumed bile duct cancer is so aggressive. If she survives it the PTC will extend her life 3-4 months. If she doesn’t have it, her jaundice will continue and the bile will create an infection. I’m finding it very difficult to cope with the shock of the news that I will lose my mum soon. Her inability to speak properly and lack of comprehension makes the whole situation so much worse. I’ve moved out of London to Exeter to care for her and am trying to work my job remotely while looking after my 80 year old dad. I feel under immense strain/stress and feel exhausted, can’t sleep well, have been experiencing a tight chest, shortness of breath and heart palpitations and don’t know how to cope. I feel tearful all the time. Have been on Sertraline 50mg anti-depressants since November (so before all this happened) for anxiety/depression. Most of my friends live in London so I’m struggling with not having face-to-face support most of the time.