Hi [@Anger]‍ 

I can see that you've been chatting with some forum members on a couple of your other posts.

It can be really hard some days caring for a loved one who is struggling as much as it sounds like your daughter is at the moment. But I just wanted to stop by and let you know that you're more than welcome to come and vent here on the forum anytime you need to. Use the forum as your safe space to talk about the things that you need to. 

I read that you're taking your grandaughter horse riding today! I hope the two of you have had a wonderful day together. 

Best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator

I have been venting a bit was that why you contacted me jenn(moderator )was I venting to much  if I was sorry but feeling much calmer after taking my granddaughter horse riding yesterday it was a beautiful day , definitely going to take her again she had fun and it was a good way of taking my mind off cancer , even though my daughter wasn’t able to come horse riding I sent her loads of videos and it made her so happy to see her daughter having so much fun so it was a win win for all of us today still got my granddaughter which I love having her stay over but she’s bk to school tommorow , my daughters resting today  hope everyone is doing ok today

Hi there ...

Cancer and fear mixed together is the reason some get angry and take it out on loved ones ... it is not an excuse... I would tell all my family to turn around and go if I came to that ... my sister has late stage dementure... and has gone from an amazing big sis ... to someone who's so angry at all of us ... 

What I do is when she starts venting at me, I'll retreat to another room, and try again later ... it's heartbraking ... more so you as a mum ... we bring them into this world ... and try our best to care for them, no mater their age ... they will always be our babies ... but to see them so weak and angry ... well there's no words ... just that well never give up... they are a part of us ...  but getting out of the situation really eases it .. let her know if she's going to take it all out on you, you'll turn and leave the room ... 

I've just seen your other post about the house riding with your granddaughter... get as much quality time with her as possible ... she will need you desperately... this is gonna be the hardest thing you do .. but if you get the balance right ... you will have a better chance to come through ... it must feel like your stuck in a tornado ... I'd say to your daughter next time she takes it out on you ... " I know why your so angry and scared ... I understand and I'm doing my best to be here .. l love you but I won't sit and watch your anger directed at me ..."  

Sending you a big hug ... remember even super woman would brake with what your going through ... 

Chrissie