Hi zena some people with C go into deniel they don't want to believe, you don't say where or what type of C you're partner has weather it's treatable,. Some people give in thinking I've got cancer that's it. I am so sorry for you struggling with this. If you want have a rant you can come on the forum anytime. It does help to talk about things. We all know that on here. Best wishes. 

Billy 

Hi there ...

It's a crazy, hard, confusing time ... and our heads get filled with what ifs ... and worse case sinarios... we need time to get our head round things before letting those we love in ...

He's probly thinking he just doesn't want to know ... but if you stand back a pace ( I know that's hard) and just be there .. you can't make it better ... if only we had magic wands ... or a crystal ball ... but sadly that's only in films ... but if you tell him, you'll stand by him no mater what he decides ... you'll give him back a little control over his journey... cancer trys to take all controll away ...

Then gently say, your babies have to be taken into account ... as it's so hard for you, trying to make their life as normal as poss, while knowing nothing ... if he gets angry or tries to push you away, its normal... we try to protect those we love ... but not realising we just make things worse ...

If you can get your head around things .. live in the day ... don't look to far ahead ... and let him take the lead ... and it's not him being mean, its the cancer ... it makes us all cranky at times ... but if he gets angry, find an excuse and get out of the situation ... take kids to park... go to shops .. or just a walk .. cancer is the reason we feel angry ..l it's not an excuse to take it out on loved ones ...

Always here if you want a chat ... look after you too ... it's as hard on you ... sending you a vertual hug... chrissie xx

He have liver cancer that has spread near spleen. The thing is the docs told him he had kidney stones when they never done any scans or blood tests. He went on thinking thats wat it is. Anyway the pain in his back was getting worse so the finally done some tests thats wen we found out. The problem is he had these exact same symptoms over a year ago that the docs put down 2 bad back but it never got better. He could have had this a long time already so he needs 2 hurry n get it sorted. I have mental health issues plus acrophobia so I stuggle 2 leave house, my 10 year old boy, well the boys r not mine I bring them up along side mart, well he got anger problems that have now way out of control,  since knowing about his dads c. Im in a hole and im stuck!!

Congratulations my friend