A couple of years ago my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer. Last year my dad was diagnosed lung cancer. Two months ago my best friend was diagnosed with cancer. i am 32. female.
Ive been a depressed soul since i was young, i always thought i would go first. Im not sure if im being a good daughter and a good friend. Im giving 100% to make my friends life happier while shes going through chemo. but im not im succeeding. there are times when i come home at night and im so exhausted, i have to take pillsto sleep, i am tired of keeping my friends spirits high. dont get me wrong..i WANT to be there for her. but when i come home, im exhausted. and im not sure im doing a good or if im a good friend to her. and cancer is what we - family - talk about as well for the past year since my fathers diagnosis. when he coughs i think about cancer. whenever something happens, i think of cancer. i am in uni at the moment, and i have missed half of my exams. i cant, however, ask them to leave me alone a couple of hours per day so i can study, because i feel bad. all of them are more couragious than i am. they dont cry, they are not scared. they are fighting really well! im the worse one.
