Hi to anyone who happens past this post... I think like many people suffering with cancer themselves or in the ones they love eventually find themselves on here Typing away in the hope it finds them some comfort... so that’s me... my mums got secondary liver cancer and last week, after battling it for just over a year, we were given the ‘weeks to live’ news, no further treatment as she’s not strong enough and her liver is covered in cancer and blood test results are all going from bad to worse. As I understand it all, right now we’re waiting on her liver function stopping as all the surrounding elements of what it does are showing to be deteriorating fast. If anyone has any experience of that in a loved one then I’d be really interested if you could share it. One of the things I find the hardest is waiting for the unknown. 

The past week I’ve found myself pretty inconsolable, but with two kids (one just 8 weeks old) you can’t quite carve out the time to feel like that or to get yourself out of it when you do - it’s very much in the moment in terms of feelings. 

Mu mum also sufferers mentally in terms of processing information and has many symptoms that you’d associate with autism - this is after a secondary tumour in her brain burst 2 years ago. The silver lining is she doesn’t quite compute or retain info about what’s going on. I think that’s best for her. But it’s pretty hard when I’m being told to sort out future care plans and funeral stuff. It’s all a bit crazy. 

I’m just learning how to use the GPS and Macmillan to help us, but it doesn’t seem that easy knowing who to call and when and what support that can give. 

Anyway, think I’d find it helpful to read anyone else’s experiences, or thoughts on the above, right now I’m reaching for something to help! 

Thanks :)