Hi ya ...

Oh my, no wonder your feeling alone ... l think you've been holding so many feelings in for so long ... it must feel overwhelming... bless ya ...

Now I grew up like you , hold things in, cope by your self ... be strong ... don't worry those you love, they have so much going on, how could you put more on them ..

You know my first four call backs from mamorgrams ... I went to alone ... and yes they were all o.k .. but because I'd told no one.. I couldn't "high 5" myself ... on my 5th one, I knew was cancer ... and once again thought I'd do it alone .. my wonderful niece was working on the oncology ward that day and as I was waiting, she spotted me .. and came in with me, holding my hand as my surgeon told me l had a a grade 3 breast cancer ... having her there was wonderfull ... 

My son found out and was in a right state ..and yes l felt overwhelmed.... but one day my daughter in law sat us down and said no more panicking... no more what ifs ... well take it one problem at a time ... and we'll do it together ... and you know although they had lots going on, all my family pulled together and was with me every step of the way .. 

I think sometimes we have to admit wer scared ... or angry ... confused ... and you know they maybe trying to be strong for you .. when if you share tears, and feelings... you can all walk together ... you know it's so hard to say "I need help... I'm not coping"  and you've made that first move on here ...

Reach out ... yes they probly have a lot going on .. but we all do .. if it was the other way round, you'd want to know and reach out ... and I'm here most days ... l can't take it away... but I can offer you a shoulder to lean on .. sending you a big vertual hug. . Chrissie