Hi, im so sorry to hear this x 

I lost my mum 6 months ago to lung cancer too. She was only 43 and im 17:( it is truly the most unfair thing anyone can go through, all i can say is you need to love her and care for her as best as you can and be strong for her x it is incredibly hard i know, you will get through this tough time and you will surprise yourself with how strong you are. keep in touch x 

Thanks for the reply Millie,

I’m so sorry to hear that as your so young, it’s such a sad thing to have to go through at this age. I hope your keeping well and looking after yourself. Its now July and my mum is still suffering, she is now home from the hospice and is on oxygen and lots of medication. She just sleeps a lot and barely eats now, she has lost I don’t know how much but she looks half her size as she was a size 10 before all of this. I feel like I have already lost my mum and this isn’t her anymore, she gets so agitated and annoyed at me for doing the littles thing. Her anxiety is hitting the roof and she just looks so unhappy, my poor mum I wish I could take it all away from her. I now have gone back to work due to having no choice and this has gave me a little routine back but I still feel bad for leaving my mum for six hours a day. My brother and sister come every 2 hours but she doesn’t really speak to them like she does me. Keep in touch Millie x

Hi Codey, 

Im so sorry to hear she is still suffering, it is so unfair on your poor mum. This was similar with my mmu, towards the end she was on lots of oxygen all the time and loads of meds too, she also slept alot and did not speak to us as normal and started to struggle to even get words out and open her eyes. She started just giving us thumbs up and down rather than speaking and it really broke my heart so i completely understand what youre saying. 

Dont beat yourself up about going back to work as your mum would want you to keep a routine as it will help in the long run, try and look after yourself as much as you can, i know its extremely tough. 

Sending you lots of hope, Millie x 

Hi Millie, 

Yes she’s the same as it sounds like with your mum, how long did it take for your mum to pass after this stage? I don’t feel my mum has long left. They did give her a 12 month time frame and that was in August last year. I just don’t want to walk in one day and she’s gone. It’s so hard living in a house where there is just me and my mum, u feel like I don’t get a break from it at all as my brother and sister get to go home to there families and a bit of normality. I feel like I am being selfish when I say this but that is how I feel, I hope your getting on as best as you can. 

Codey x