Dear All

December 2016 was my last post about my dad - he died 4 weeks later :( devastated didnt come close).  I coped for my mum and family as you do and tried to get her life back on track, then in a cruel twist of fate my mum was diagnosed with cervical cancers last June 2018.  Chemo and radiotherapy has not done the trick and now we are waiting on the consultants appointment on Tuesday to see what the options are for her.  My heart breaks every day I see her seeing how frail, skinny and withdrawn that she now is.  Macmillan visit but my mum doesnt rate them, I take her to all her appointments, I take her food round but cannot force her to eat. 

Family tell me I need to look after myself, I do, I really do but I keep imaging the worst and it gets me down.  Im trying to be strong but today is not a good day for feeling strong.  

I can see we are not alone from the posts and threads on here but just wish there was more I can do. :(