My dad has just turned 80 and in November was diagonised with small cell lung cancer and now secondary at top of spine. He had 5 sessions of radiotherapy on his neck. The tumour in his lung bled out so he had a 5 blast dose of radiotherapy on that. The doctor then told him they couldn’t discharge him without taking home a pen. This was on the chance that he bled out and it would mean that once given he was not aware of it happening. My mum collapsed when they told us that and I really thought he would not be able to deal with that. However after another night in hospital it was decided that he should not take this pen home.  He was managing his pain by ibrobrufen and paracetamol. Still dealing with a lot of pain but insistent that he was coping. On Wednesday he suddenly said his side was sore and he felt dizzy. He took to his bed and the doctor came out on Thursday. She prescribed morphine for his shoulders and neck. Diazaphan for his back. Since Thursday he has hardly drunk anything and not eaten anything. He is very sleepy and refuses to open his eyes. Facing the wall and not interested in anything. He was in agony for a few days but the side is easing and the morphine is helping his shoulders and neck. He is fairly lucid, dehydrated and has passed urine but refuses to get out of bed. He has said he wants to die and wants oblivion through the drugs which he was getting but he is getting used to the morphine. He was weak before this but now I really don’t think I can get him to move as his legs would buckle. I really don’t know what to do and will call the doctor in the morning. He tells us to go away and my mum is not giving him enough drugs. I think he thinks this is it as he has been given morphine and I attempted to tell him tonight that was for a better quality of life so he could get up but now he is too weak. Should I call Macmillan and really what could they do. Sorry for such a long dialogue but I really don’t know what to do. Thank you x