A year and a half ago my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer. She went through multiple surgeries and finished chemotherapy last Spring, meaning she has been in remission for nearly a year.
Her cancer journey took place at a very busy time in my family's lives, and a year later I am finding a lot of bad memories are resurfacing. I am a lot more anxious and don't like talking about it at all; in fact, I think this is the first time I've opened a discussion on her illness! I find my anxieties are affecting my life now, however I feel selfish because I know I am very lucky to say that she is in remission. At the time, I remember feeling very numb, so I'm starting to think that these repressed emotions are coming to the surface now. I was offered therapy at the time and put on the wait list, but things never manifested, and I put it off because I was so busy at school. I also felt like attending therapy for myself was taking attention away from my mum at a time where all of our attention and resources should have been on her. I find myself randomly crying when passing hospitals, talking about cancer or talking about death. I don't know what to do.
