Hi worriedsis,

I'm so sorry to hear about your dear sister. This disease causes so much pain and heartache. I too am having a hard time coping with my mom's diagnosis. It is truly devastating and hard to imagine my life without her. I love her deeply. I've sought out counseling for this coming weekend in hopes that I can start to handle this emotionally as I'm not coping at all. I know how you feel and I'm here for you if you just want to chat and get things off of your chest. It's a comfort to know that someone can understand what you're going through and be a shoulder to lean on during this trying time. 

Warm regards,

Northern

Hello worried sis; sorry to learn about your young sister. Is she getting any treatment?  What are the doctors saying?  I know the whole thing is terrifying and impossible to accept.  I hope you are not bearing the whole load of this awful situation?    Annie

Hi Northern,

thanks so much for your reply, I’m really sorry to hear about your mum, I hope she’s not in any pain. It means the world to me to have people to talk to but I don’t feel like I can talk to family as they’re trying to cope with their own feelings without me adding to it. It’s nice talking to friends but they have no idea what we’re going through and I feel like I’m dragging everyone down with me! I thought about counselling and registered on the ‘mind’ website but I’m a bit to scared to take the leap, I’m worried I’ll just burst into tears and cry for an hour with a complete stranger so it would be lovely to hear how your session went! 

Hi Annie, thanks for replying. My sisters being really strong, she’s had 5/6 chemotherapy treatments and she is due a scan tomorrow to see what effects it has had on her tumour. It’s really started to sink in with her over the past couple of weeks and she’s been really down when she thinks about how she might not get to see her 2 beautiful children grow up. The doctors said that the cancer she has is extremely rare (thymic carcinoma) so they can try to treat it to extend her life but they can’t cure it, and that’s the bit we’re all struggling with. I’m by no means dealing with this on my own, my mums been a pillar of strength for us all and I’ve got a lovely husband who can take a good cry on the shoulder! Also looking after her 2kids is the best way to stay positive!

Laura. 

Hello again; it apears from the times of your posts that you are having sleepless nights; I am so sorry.  I had never heard of thymic carcinoma so took a few minutes out to read up on it; very nasty beast.  .(I know I  have to be careful not to confuse thymic carcinoma with thymoma.) It is good that there are supportive family members and I imagine you are being kept busy (and how) looking after her children.  Your poor sister; with two children and a loving family around her, why on earth did this have to happen?  But I wonder this about so many people I read about here.   Cancer is an evil predator; doesn't care, ruins lives and moves on to another victim.  I hope that the treatment your sister is receiving will slow things down big time.    I noticed you have already made contact with another post about this cancer which I hope is helpful for you.  Annie

I am so sorry to hear about your sister. My sister was  also diagnosed in April with an incurable brain tumour and like you I just cannot come to terms with the knowledge that I will lose my beautiful sister.  BEfore diagnosis she was a fit and healthy lady holding down a demanding job,  She is so brave and dignified  when she is given blow after blow of bad news but I know my sister is scared and I just want to make this all go away.  I am struggling to cope at work as not really getting much support. 

I’m so sorry to hear about your sister, she sounds exactly like mine, brave and dignified but scared. Unfortunately my sister passed away in April and it was every bit as hard as I imagined it would be. We were unbelievably close and so I just feel like I’ve lost everything. I felt desperate at the end suggesting to drs that I buy immunotherapy drugs online to give her but there was nothing else they could do. I wish things could be different, I’ve wished that everyone else could take her place including me and now I’m just angry and miserable because I feel like I’ve been robbed of all the things we’d planned to do. Quite honestly I don’t want it to get any easier because I want her to know that nothing is the same without her. I’m still getting up everyday though and helping to look after her 2 kids so somehow you will manage to find the strength from somewhere that you didn’t realise you had! I really hope your sister is getting the best care and I’ll keep wishing for a miracle for you! 

My sister collapsed 3 weeks ago and was then diagnosed with a grade 4 brain tumour, she's only 47. It's inoperable and untreatable, it's massive. I understand your pain and disbelief. I'm not sure how to process everything. She's been given 6 weeks to 3 months life expectancy. She's also lost her speech and can't really communicate with us. There is no hope. I'm a strong person but feel like I'm drowning. It's heart breaking. You are not alone in your pain x