Where to start, I'm new to this but not new to Cancer. 16 years ago my dad got throat cancer and had a Tracioscopy done with parts of his tongue and limph nodes removed, that alone was awful but he pulled through, he hasn't been I'd say the same since then with having to talk using a finger on his Stoma and constantly getting clogged up after eating or drinking but at least he's here and he fought it off.
Then in September this year on my birthday 18th he was told they were going to refer him to the hospital after he'd been complaining about his shoulder hurting (which he'd mentioned many times) when the docter was looking at his shoulder that's when he noticed a lump on his lymph node. So up to hospital he went something like 2 weeks later to have biopsies, he also had x rays and ct scans and ultrasound then 2 weeks later we got the news that Cancer was back and that it was a different kind of cancer, they wanted to do further tests as by now my dad was saying he could feel a lump when he swallowed, so he went this time for more biopsies and we were told that the lump in his throat was also cancer , he was being referred to the cancer hospital and they'd be in touch, we received a call to say he'd need a Pet CT scan which he went for along with further biopsies on his thyroid. We were called in for a meeting this last Wednesday 9th where the docter told us that the cancer had spread down into his throat and further and that there's nothing they can do for it, they offered palliative chemotherapy to reduce the cancer size and slow it down , which my dad has signed up for and starts this Tuesday.
We're living a horrific nightmare, I know everyone says it but my dad truly is the nicest guy, would do anything for anyone , life is just so cruel, facing loosing my dad with perhaps months to live a year at very best is ripping my insides out, he doesn't want pitty and I can see he's scared...I literally feel like my insides are screaming as I cant help him/ make him better, there's nothing, I love him so very much and al be with him every step of the way as will my sister and my mum who's still his wife but separated but best of friends.
Fear of what's to come is just terrifying. I have bouts of feeling alright then total breakdowns, there no light at the end of this tunnel just crap.
Has anyone been through a similar situation? Nothing that might make me worse please just has anyone been through this and come out the other side ?
Many thanks
