Hi, 

My mum was diagnosed with caner in April/May this year. She has Chron's disease which she has had since she was about 13 which isn't helping. She has had the radiotherapy and we are now waiting for her to have the operation to remove said tumour. The cancer was found very late on (it was growing for about 2 years before we found it). Her operation keeps getting put off it was meant to be in September and now its looking like she'll be in hospital over Christmas. The worst part is, she keeps making comments about not making it through and not surving the operation. Now we're not a family who will sit down and talk face to face so I feel like this is her saying the doctors have told her this might happen. I can't cope with this idea and I have no idea what to do. I am trying to keep up a brave face infront of her and my dad but I'm really struggling now. I don't want them to think I'm not dealing with this. Sorry for such a long post.