Hi Florence92

i completely understand what your feeling, my mum was diagnosed very similar to you. You will see from my posts that I expressed my feeelings & was very angry & worried not just about my mother but I was worried that I couldn't hold it together for her. 

How are you? No one ever asks that question, it's just as hard for family as it is for the patient I found. It's very important that you express your own feelings, talk to family, talk to friends or colleagues. I couldn't have got through the past few months without my work colleagues, they have kept me together throughout this year. 

I know you probably don't feel like going work, school or whatever but trust me getting away from home was the best thing for you to do. Of course I didn't forget what was happening at home, but all I can say is try to laugh and have fun, something I know isn't what you feel like but it's important to look after your own health too. After all laughter is the best medicine ...

it  was a complete shock to learn my mum had cancer. It took a long time to learn to cope, I was a complete mess all year, but I'm learning to cope better now but it's still a long few months ahead. My friends at work have supported me through this year, I don't know what I'd have done without their advice, shoulders to cry on etc.  My mum is doing well, obviously she is fed up with all the doctors hoking & poking at her but I just keep reminding her that it's for the best & she is getting better.

It's not easy but the end goal is to get better, stay positive & enjoy life because I've learned a lot this year that life is precious, nothing lasts forever & for myself I've learned that there is more to life than work, that I do have an inner strength (something that I never thought I could cope with has happened now & has made me stronger). I will keep you in my prayers, trust me when I say, you WILL find an inner strength & you WILL cope, you WILL never stop worrying but you have got to TRUST what the consultants tell you. 

I hope you are ok, I'm sending your mum & yourself virtual hugs, the road may get rocky but the bumps will hopefully disappear, keep in touch, remember I am here for you day or night, just send me a message or reply on this thread.

Ger xx