Hi everyone,

Last year my mum had her 3rd diagnosis of breast cancer alongside secondary bone cancer. She recently finished her chemotherapy for this but last month she found out that it had spread once again but this time to her brain.

She has had radation therapy and is now having chemotherapy - she looks so poorly and is having many side effects; double vision, can barely walk, nose bleeds, tiredness etc. She has also now gone cross eyed.
The side effects are alot worse than when she was having chemotherapy previously.

My mum will just not talk to me about it, she doesn't want me to worry but it's too late for that. I have tried asking her how bad it is but she just gets angry and refuses to answer which makes me think that it's very bad.

I saw that on some of her paperwork she is have palliative treatment and that they are not trying to cure the cancer.
Work are being very supportive and it is a great distraction however I have been feeling very overwhelmed and keep thinking that she is going to die.
I just don't know what to do, she is a shell of her former self.
I want to know how bad it is and if she has been given a life expectancy but I know she will not tell me either way.
 

I know that all I can do is be there for her and be strong for her especially as she is so overwhelmed herself but it's frustrating for me not knowing the extent of the diagnosis.
Please do not think that I care more about my feelings than hers because I do not - I just felt like I needed to rant a little as I do not like to burden those around me with my worries.

Thank you for reading