My wife says I should marry again. She wants me to be happy after she is gone. In May 18 we looked at buying a house by the sea. "This is for you, I wont be here in September", she said. I'm 51, she 56. I quit work to care for her in Feb 2016. We never moved, by now I am emotionally drained with no goals in life. For someone who was a do'er, i feel im dying mentally / emotionally. I never built up friendships much in my work life. Now, I regret this and find it so lonely. My wife is soon to go to pallative care and all I want to do is travel and escape the inevitable painful ending of a life. I've seen it before with my oldest brother at 18. It might sound selfish, but i feel my life is being robbed.
